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shadows and dust

What do you see when you look up to the night sky? Wonder? Mystery? Perhaps you see god or maybe the vast emptiness of it all? To each his own when surveying the great infinite I say. because truthfully how many of us will know what it is like? What is it like to look down on the planet where our entire species is located in a universe so large it boggles the mind? What would you feel in the split moment for the first time in your short, generally unmeaningful life when you become weightless and can fly through the air? I will probably never know.

takes your breath away

This picture is one of the most amazing things I have ever seen, one of the most iconic, beautiful pictures ever taken. This picture should humble us beyond words, to know that this is all we are. Our planet is less than dust in the grand scheme of the universe. And when our sun too breathes its final breath so will it return to dust as well. For you that dont know, this picture is taken of Earth as voyager left our solar system and begun its journey into the cosmos itself. To me it is truly one of the most beautiful and perhaps heart wrenching pictures I’ve ever seen. That tiny spec in a beam of light has held every human being ever, we truly are meaningless, our lives shrouded by the vast cold reaches of space and perhaps time itself.

What do I see when I look up into the night sky? I do not see god. I do not see a vast empty place. I see the future. I see our limitless potential balled up and chained down on this iron cored ball of dirt. I see such beautiful and terrifying things as I stare in awe and am humbled by the blinking, twinkling lights of perhaps now dead stars. Stars who’s bodies are cast into the far reaches of space. We too are stars, every single one of us, what makes us who we are is perhaps untold billions of years old.

People have asked me if I think there is a heaven or hell and I don’t answer because I don’t care. Is there a reason? Is there a reason for me to answer? So you might have your say when you either agree with me or disapprove? No. It’s funny, I have only been alive for 25 years out of the universes entirety. I was okay with it then and I’m sure I will be okay with it when my time comes around once more. The universe is vast and I am incalculably small and insignificant but I look up and dream of the stars.

I live life as best I can under the circumstances I am afforded. I think of myself as an honest, loyal and upstanding person. I live my life alone except for the friends I surround myself with, the best people I know, who also live their lives as best they can under the circumstances.And I cant honestly understand the hate that people feel for one another. Why? The most sickening reasons to me are the ones which people cannot control. The color of your skin, your sexual orientation, what your opinions are and people will and do kill over such petty things. I see it all the time and it saddens me because were all we have. Were all here on this small little planet, stranded somewhere in the massive ever expanding universe. We are all we have, we are our own family on a small blue dot, and we should all be holding on for dear life.

you are here

There are some people that would say life is not insignificant. To us? No, life is all we have. All that we strive for. Life merely is. But look to the right, where are we in there? Do you comprehend just how insurmountably massive our own galaxy is? Our sun while small to us is once again just a pinprick compared to supermassive stars which will in turn when they die tear sections of the universe asunder and will continue to do so, perhaps even after our universe dies and is reborn again.

What were are was born billions of years ago across the vastness of the universe itself. We are all bound and made from the bodies of stars long since dead, we are all that remain from them, we are their legacy. People ask me if I’m afraid to die. No. When I die, I return from which I was for billions of years and rejoin infinite once more. And when our sun too passes, we will truly return to the universe once more. What do you see when you look up to the sky? God? A vast emptiness? I see infinite possibilities and impossible beauty and a place I can only wish to see in my short and meaningless life.

Dashing I’m sure

Now that my formal introductions are out of the way, let us talk, talk about things we should not.

I find myself daydreaming about space alot, and the new Kepler space observatory only satiates my growing hunger so much. One of the sad facts that I have come to accept is that I will never get to see a human being step foot on another world more than likely. I would like for us to find life in the universe besides us, and although I’m 110% sure it will happen one day, I begin to doubt if that too will be in my lifetime. There are alot of things that I would like to see that have to do with space and the universe at large.

When I was younger I remember going to an observatory, I believe it was with my school but the finer details are not important. It sparked a lust in my heart, but one that I was never able to fill in any way, shape or form. As a child I didn’t really understand the immense vastness and the unbearable emptiness. Honestly? I have a better comprehension of it now as I am older with years and wiser than I was, though inevitably I must still look to the heavens in wonder and amazement and know that I will never be a starfighter pilot. Truly, these are dark times.

I cant help but wonder with the world evolving as it is, are we in a new dark age of technology? We set our sights on the moon, managed to beat the Russians to the prize which by all accounts should have been theirs. He are learning of new medical breakthroughs that can cure diseases ingrained in our very beings and were completely incurable, and which still are or would be. We neglect and stutter on the moral implications of such things as sending people to their deaths to get to Mars. Do you wish to be immortal? Be infused with humanity for as long as we continue to thrive? Be the first to step foot on another planet. If they were making a new doomsday device would there be objections? Why arnt there objections to there being neutron bombs or nuclear weapons small enough to load into rocket pods?

Why do we linger in such times? We live on the brink of greatness and we falter?

Astronomy. We must leave the Earth eventually, I like to think of the human race as perhaps in its teens or preteen years. We think we know whats best for us, but deep down all we care about is ourselves. Eventually we must leave the roost as it were, how long can Earth’s resources support us? And by us I mean the privileged people not the millions of people  who still starve to death every year. And thats just starving. I’m not trying to be a bleeding heart here but what I’m saying is we already have problems feeding the people we have, as the world population blossoms ever constantly despite such things.

Eventually I know that if we somehow don’t kill everyone off and perhaps maybe work out the vast majority of the social problems we have, maybe we could get some real change going. It might seem apocalyptic but really in the vast scope of things we aren’t anything at all and I think thats the saddest part of all. Look up the Sloan Great Wall if you don’t believe me. you think light taking 7 minutes to get to earth is incredible? Try 1.37 billion light years.

I sit at home and dream of the stars because its really, really hard to see them through the clouds and the lights of the city.